You were abandoned as a pup from your first owners, then my mother picked you out of all of them even though the owner suggested, "not that one he's unruly". I understood why when I met you. I believed you were autistic... You crazy bastard!! You would tear me apart and I'd have to hide in my room til mum mum put you away! That lasted quite awhile. I left for a little over a year and when I came back, I began to introduce you to my room so you'd have some area to play. You quickly found my bed and my heart. I was returned and abandoned as well so we had that shared bond. I gave you all the love I had in my heart. I spent pretty much most of my loot on you with glee and joy. You made my life whole and complete. You were the reason I got up in the mourning and the only one I came home to @ night. Losing you now is absolutely crumbling me and I write this as I drown in tears.. I was never a dog person but you changed all that. Your warmth and unconditional love supported me throughout the years. You brought joy to all those around you and strangers always came up to you and petted to and commented on your beauty. I'll always remember how you would rubb your ears and I said, "get that ear" all elongated and enthusiastic. Or how I'd make a mess
or you would and say, " oh, Monster mess." You were way more than a dog you had such a spirit and a glow that it outshined everything. You will truly be forever in my heart and completely missed but take heart, my bestie, I will be with you when my time comes and I will live fully so you can live through my eyes. You've made my heart bigger and softer with your presence and your absence is profound. Please forgive me for not listening to you and not getting help sooner. This will be a regret I will always have but I will have to learn to accept and be alright with. I will always remember how you would tell me you wanted to go further when we walked by coming up to me and stepping in front and leaning on me. Pushing me and most times I'd listen to you. You'd also put up your paw to tell me no I just wished I'd listened this last time. You knew I just didn't see it. I Love you more than anything in this world and can't wait until we meet again Monster face. Be with me in spirit as I continue forth. I'll need your strength and love I'm the coming days. All my love sweet sweet boy Monster face!